Teori Cinta Chillax

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Miss Chillax: Kahkahkah. Orait! Camni cerita dia: Cinta ni umpama nasi goreng pattaya favorite kau tu. Kalau kau pegi restaurant thai area teluk batik tu... Kau order nasi goreng pattaya. K, kau tunggu order kau sampai. Lama...

Syafiq: Okayy

Miss Chillax: Pastu tetiba, dari kerusi tempat kau duduk tu, kau nampak nasi pattaya. Kau dah happy... Yeayy! Dah sampai. Pastu? Waitress dtg kat kau... Nak hantar nasi goreng... Pastu? Tengok tengok dia hantar nasi goreng tu kat orang lain. Kat belakang kau. Meaning to say, 'she's the one' kau yang kau tunggu tunggu. Kau doa hari hari... Dan kau rasa dia lah the best... Tetiba jatuh ke tangan orang lain... So, maybe... Allah save the other best untuk kau. Memang kau rasa nasi goreng pattaya ni lah yang kau tunggu2... Tapi, bukan...untuk kau.

Syafiq: Alaa sedihnya.

Miss Chillax: Maybe, nasi goreng pattaya yang tu takcukup rasa, terkurang masin. Dan hopefully nasi goreng pattaya yang datang lepasni, better dan kalau tak better pun, ideal n perfect utk kau. Okey... any question? Or aku boleh sambung pelajaran kedua? Ecehh. Haha

Syafiq: Camne kalau waiter tu dah hantar pattaya tu kat meja kita, kita dah pegang plate tu, but then waiter tu ambik balik sbb tu bukan pattaya kita sbb ade org lain punya yg dah tunggu turn lama
       
Miss Chillax: Ada 2 probability kalau benda tu jadi
         
Syafiq: Apa dia?

      

     Miss Chillax: 1. Kalau kau dah get ready nak makan nasi goreng pattaya. 2. kau belum sempat pun nak wat pape. Kalau the 1st one yg jadi.. .Allah hantarkan nasi goreng pattaya tu utk buat kau rasa happy. Yelah. Seronok kot bila dah jumpa 'she's the one'. Dan buat kau belajar. Belajar how to eat nasi goreng pattaya in the best way. Sama ada kau nak tweet gambar nasi goreng pattaya tu before makan. Ataupun kau nk baca doa dulu before makan. Meanwhile, 2nd case pulak..... Sekejap, 1st case takhabis komen lagi. Okey... but, bila waiter datang nak amek balik yang kau dah makan tu... Takdelah makan sangat, usik sikit je la. Dah letak garfu dgn sudu kat sos tu apa sume. Memang kau sedih bila waiter tu amek nasi kau. Tapi,....

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     Syafiq: Tapi, takkan lah dia nak ambik balik kann. Melainkan customer satu lagi tu tak sabar sabar nak makan dia rampas dari meja aku

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     Miss Chillax: Sekurang kurangnya... Kau dapat rasa happy walau sekejap. Tak tak silap sikit. Sepatutnya aku cakap.... Kau dah get ready nak makan in term of dah pegang sudu garfu, baru nk cecah telur bungkus tu.

Syafiq: Oh okayy

      

    Miss Chillax: Teori ni baruu je dtg tadi, tu yg tak cukup berkembang lagi falsampah dia. Neuron aku still merangka. Tu yg terabur sikit. Hahaha

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      Syafiq: Haha, takpa boleh diperbaiki lagi, yang ni pun dah ohsem dah. Kau tulis ni sbb kau fall in love ke ape?

Miss Chillax: Okey, yang second... Kau just pegang plate... Nak tarik pinggan betul betul depan kau... Choiiii aku terfikir ni sebab tadi aku ngn member sorang ni terbukak topik cinta. Aku bagi teori sebagai feminine. Dia... bagi teori macho macho la. Sebab member aku lelaki. Pasal girlfriend dia apa sume. Sebab aku tak in a relationship, jadi aku kene bincang teori dgn orang yg tgh in a relationship. Okey kalau yang second kau dah pegang pinggan... Tarik betul betul depan kau... Then waiter ckp sorry... Maknanya Allah nak uji kau. Nak latih diri kau menjadi sabar. As sobru minal imaan

      

      Syafiq: Hmm betul jugak

Miss Chillax: Kau taksempat kenal lagi 'she's the one' kau. Baru dapat number dia je. Dengan nama... Baru nak sembang sembang... Nak kenal hati budi. Dia tunang dgn lelaki lain
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Okay, to be continue i guess? Aku lapar nasi goreng pulak duk type nasi goreng nasi goreng. Luls

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One day, aku whatsapp Abah. Just normal routine kalau takde benda nak buat. Lol

I said:

Abah tahu kan, I got a lot of friends... I kawan je dengan semua. Boys. Girls. But somehow, I pelik. Why the ell they leave me. All of sudden, they unfriend me. Hmm. Something like that. I'm sad. But I can conclude people, cant accept us for who we are. I takpernah cari kawan. They suddenly come to me and hey, let's be friends. They come to me and adding me as their friend, and then they go. 

Easy come, easy go. People come and go.

Khairi once said, mana ada people come and come.

Sternly I replied:

I guess people come and stay mehh.

Then he said: 

Memanglah. Tak ada yang kekal di dunia ni melainkan DIA.

I was like... Whoa, making new perspective. Okay. Just istiqamah make relationship with Allah.

Somehow, it hurts inside. You couldnt see it physically. That's why I prefer to stay alone. Pergi mana mana pun sorang sorang. But in my lone ranger mode, people will come. I guess that is just part of life process. People come and go.

Ada waktu kita redha...

Ada waktu kita sedih...

Ada waktu kita sakit...

Kehilangan kawan...

How I wish that people who come starting this very year will stay forever with me and never leave. But then, who am I to wishing like this n that. Macam tak layak je nak berharap camtu. Segala - galanya Allah yang tentukan.

Therefore, I always be prepared to face loss after loss. Face every loss. It is inevitable. Unavoidable.

Abah said:

Kesimpulannya mudah saje, orang taknak kawan takpe. Jangan cari musuh sudahlah. You said that you never find them, so kalau hilang pun, watpe nak sedih? Dont worry be happy. la takhof wa la tahzan. Innallahha ma'ana. Nasrumminallahhi walfathul qarib.

But still...

I dont want heart feeling.

I hate clingy. 

I hate overly attached.

I hate it when I started to get along with someone, next thing I know, people leave me and I'm not worth with any explanation.

It hurts and kinda sucks. 

I dont know how to express this kind of feelings. I'm scared, phobia. in doubt and eventually it will make me sad. I just wanna make it works. At least once and forever and ever.

Coz I'm tired. I'm so scared of losing people that I care, I love and it always happened. I've lost lots of people who I love, I care the most. It is really depressing, sad and pathetic.

Well actually...
I really hope that people who come in this year will stay forever till my last breath. Insyaallah aaminn.

Or else...

Dont you dare to come and be part of my life if you will leave me in the end.
Because...
I hate when people treat me so special for one day and next day I'm just nothing for them. Please dont do that to me, people. Ignore me for days and then start talking to me again like nothing happened.

Hurt. A lot. Inside.

Last but not least,
Aku dah biasa sorang sorang. Kalau datang dengan niat nak pergi, jangan datang langsung. Attachment is hurt as fuck. Attachment is a bitch. Kbai.

Steady!

Aku just nak cakap... 

Macam Diyanah pernah pesan, dan aku pun pernah sebatikan benda ni dalam hidup aku:

I perceive life is a jigsaw puzzle. Sometimes, we find the right pieces, sometimes not. Sometimes we even thought that we get the right pieces and put it on the puzzle when eventually it is totally wrong pieces. Some people been given the easy one. Intermediate. Or even difficult one. However, we only play this freaking jigsaw puzzle, once. We can't control the game. But we could try to manage them accordingly. Keep smiling and play till the end. Life is a game. And it is jigsaw puzzle.

*Pergh rasa rabak dah dalam hati aku ni. Apa yang pedih sangat ni entahlah*

Dan aku selalu pesan kat member member aku yang hanyut dalam lamunan cinta, hello. Lu kalau lu suka orang tu, sayang orang tu, taksemestinya lu kene get into relationship thingy. And get married whatever. Lu patutnya bahagiakan dia. Or anything yang buat dia happy. Cinta tak semestinya memiliki. Kalau gitu, letih ah. Definisi cinta pada aku, melihat orang yang kita sayang tu happy. Everyone. Coz everyone is Allah's. Mana mungkin kau boleh memiliki seseorang. Sedangkan semua kat atas muka bumi ni Allah yang punya. And everyone yang datang dalam hidup kau tu, Allah pinjamkan saja. Regardless of anything that orang yang kau sayang tu buat kat kau, kau kena jugak happykan dia. Coz there there, you'll find your happiness.

Expect nothing. Give more. Time heals almost everything.

Serendipity.